.... the internet done to me?
Maybe its best I stop using he net. I not the same person in the real world as I am in the internet world.
What is the internet and why is it here. Why are people using it?
Is it killing humanity?
Im getting bullied in House Music Lovers room on SoulSeek.
A normal person would leave and never go back.
My lonelyness keeps me going back there. I even Alt and Tab when im playing GRID to see what been typed.
Help me I dont know what to do. Its affecting me not only in the mind, but physically now.
Its the same people its the same crap.
I need help with the internet.
This forum was the first forum i was crap in.
I dont know what it is. Im normal in real life, but online different person.
Its a behind locked doors thing. Im certainly different in my own flat compared to what im like when i walk out the door. This normal?
Every waking momment is just images of what the idiots type.
Its constant.
Something happened March 09. These idiots found out my address and one person came to my door. Well the door entry outside on the street.
All happened when I kept typing "chop chop" in the chat room.
And the others goaded him into coming round. he lives in Beith, Mains Avenue. (TiNNiE).
What kind of person would do that? Respond to something in a chat room and drive several miles to a strangers address. Insane.
Why would they do that?
Iv now changed slsk username and removed HML room from my auto join list. I cant take it anymore.
Its beginning to consume me and take over my normal life as ai cant stop thinking about it.
I dont know what to do.
Is this a new phenemiunon in todays internet culture/society?
But like I said earlier, most people would have stayed away from the room.
I care too much.
The room has went completely downhill. 50% of the chatters are gone, leaving ONLY the idiots.
Before the net, all was ok. Pre 99.
After the net 1999+. Well I treat the net like a game.
My prob? disorder.
untapped problem I have. many others have it too?
I know for a fact the people here are hard working types that dont get into trouble. I kinda like that ilck of people.
Iv never been in trouble with the Police and generaly do good.
What is the ineternet and WHY do we do it?
Why is it here?
Whats its purpose?
Whats its point?
Its dosent belong here.
So sad.
What I actaully did to "try" and spite them or whatever.
I opened soulseek, joined HML room , put u/l to 0 and go play online games. Then came back and read the crap they select few morons had typed about me. Unreal.
Sad I know.
Kinda addiction in a funny way.
But these people see it as some sort of entertainment.
Seriously, iv had a chat with myself. Time to stop entering the room and opening a chat with said morons.
I dont like getting bullied.
For my own good.
I feel good already.
No slsk all day yesterday. My head is clear.
Much like the time I went offline in 09, and bought an Xbox360.
Im thinking of buying a console again, and seriously considering selling all my main PC.